Uttam and Toshan are co-travellers who are on the journey of meeting Shiva and Shakti. We have been traveling inward outward together over the decades bring the light into the consciousness through meditation. The lovers come and go. But love remain the same. And this love transforms into devotion.

The harmony in us developed and is developing through meditation. The tuning of instruments are happening effortlessly then.


I don’t believe so called relationship.

Toshan is not my girlfriend. It’s relating.

I turst her intelligence and her everything.

This trust creates a certain kind of atmosphere where we can grow.

People who are in this environement can grow together.

This is what trust is, relating from the moment to moment.

By Uttam



Uttam is my friend whom I trust and the meeting point with him is that of meditation.

There was the time when I believed I was his girlfriend, because I took his trust as something like boyfriend feels to his girlfriend.

From the point where I was and to the point where I am is the journey of our growth, is the journey of Tantra, and is the ongoing process of transformation from sex to love, love to prayer.

This very process is meditation, and is my way of being to life that changes every moment.

By Toshan






Toshan is a co-leader of ShivaShakti Meeting that offers Tantra workshops in Japan and India. ShivaShakti is the ancient wisdom of Tantra.
It is the path of love. She is researching and practicing ShivaShakti for modern men, re-establishing the relationship between female and male energy.
This is the path of authentic Tantra using sexual energy to transform into divine based on the vision of OSHO.
She offers Tantra workshops, Osho Meditative therapy, meditation retreats in India and sessions for couples and singles. Her passion is to share her experiences in meditation where her heart feels at home.
 She was born in Tokyo, Japan. Her inquiry of life began early when her best girlfriend asked her the question “what is love?” That was at the age of 7. Growing up in an upper middle class family having a restrictive education background especially around sexuality, always with a big question mark on her head about life, she tried hard to be good in every possible way to fit in the society but all in vain. She lived in the US for a few years, but in spite of success in her career she came to a point where she had nothing inside but a feeling that life is hollow and meaningless.
 At that time she heard from a co-worker about OSHO. In 2002 she joined an OSHO Tantra group in Japan without knowing anything about meditation. There she experienced bliss beyond words. It didn’t take long for her to take Sannyas, quit her job and fly to India. There she experienced a deep feeling of coming home after a long journey in the darkness.
  While being on an intensive search of the Tantric path more than 15 years, having pilgrimages to hidden tantric temples in India, she has learned and practiced many meditations & therapies such as Osho Meditative Therapies, Osho Art Therapy, Family Constellation therapy, “Who Is In?”, crystal healing, Clean Language Counseling  Reiki, Numerology, Human Design, Tarot Reading, breath, dance and bodywork. She has organized Tantra groups and trainings over 8 years as well as facilitating Tantra courses and has contributed to spread Tantra in Japan.
 A part of the year she is living in Pune, India close to the Osho International Meditation Resort. She is travelling regularly between Japan and Europe to share meditation mainly through Tantra with seekers on the path.




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BODHI UTTAM is a co-leader of ShivaShakti Meeting and has experienced in the field of Meditation and Yoga for more than 20 years.
He has given workshops for last 15 years in Japan, India, Europe, China, and Korea and opened to give courses all over the world.
He was born in Brahmin family (strictly vegetarian and fuss over details about purification) he got an all the materials and atmosphere needed for spiritual growth.
He says two things extremely helped him in life that he didn’t go to school till the age of 7, allowing him to be like a wild animal in the village. And he had spent his most of time in Shiva temple in his 7 to 21 years old and met all kinds of saints and sadhus.
At the age of 14 he read BHAGAWAT GEETA and decided experiencing meditation and sharing this to the world is the goal of his life.
Life without meditation is meaningless.
His commitment has brought him to travel all around India like a dying thirsty man, roaming in HIMALAYA going to many masters and ashrams, meeting Zen masters of Japan.
Finally he got quenched by mystic OSHO. He wanted just a glass of water, and OSHO gave him Whole Ocean.
He has been living last 15 years in Pune near OSHO energy field.
He has received a university degree in science, and a master degree in journalism.
Studied at Bihar school of Yoga and Advanced therapeutic Kriya yoga at Kaivalyadhama School.
 Also he studied Zen CounselingZen tarot and many courses such as OSHO meditative therapies and others in OSHO multiversity in Pune.


Uttam Website bodhibhairav.blogspot.jp